Ana really is growing fast. I remind myself to appreciate every moment of this because it will never come back. I tell myself to take it all in because this moment is special and will soon pass. I tell myself not to resent the passing moments because the coming moments will also be so special that I would not wish to miss or delay them. Don't rush the now, and don't slow it down either, just take it all in. This is especially true as we don't plan to have any other beauties though it would appear that we have a gift at making gorgeous lovable children.
My capacity to adore and love my children has increased since Ana was born but the time that I have to love and adore and appreciate has not increased. I wonder if I give her enough time and attention as she deserves. The work of parent is a little easier but it's difficult to get enough time for play and staring at each other in to fully satisfy what I imagine is an insatiable desire to consume every experience with these children and still find time to sleep and shower. I maybe could pull this off for a third or a fourth child but I honestly don't know how parents of well loved children in very large families pull it off. I guess it's partly due to the fact that one person is not doing all of the loving. Between Tami and family and some friends my kids get a lot more love and attention than they would if I was the sole parent and family around for them. Knowing that is comforting when I wonder if I give them enough. I wonder often if I give Ana the attention she deserves when I can't imagine how it is as much as I gave to Enzo at this age. Well, as long as I am able, they each can have all the love, attention, and affection I have to give and I'll hope that it's enough.